May 17, 2008
9:48 PM
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Depressing... they wouldn't let me go. Its for band members only. The japanese authorities don't want anyone else not from the band. But it looks like it was the band teachers, directors and school who made the decision. Either way, seems like I'm not wanted on this..
I did somewhat forsee this, even though I was always hoping for the better outcome. Wanting to join the band on the trip even though I had no relations.. plus with all the hype on this trip, major/media/first time concert/etc, and japanese custom of 'doing everything according to the book', I guess my presence counted as something out of the book. They wouldn't want to risk me being there. Sacrifice for the greater good, I suppose.
Reminds me of all those anime where the village sacrifices a kid to the gods for good harvests, rain and all those stuff. They take the kid away from the parents, saying its for the greater good. I wouldn't compare the extents of both of them together though.. its just what comes to my mind when I think of the situation right now. 'You're just a tiny piece, look at the big picture here', quotes my mind. Where the individual gets drowned out by the higher-ups. Well, good luck to the band then. Wouldn't be seeing them off either.
At least I'll still be going to Japan these hols. Just not with the band. 6 days in Japan prime area. Just, without the company and friends, thats all. The trip is great, which I'm grateful for. I just wonder how fun it'll be for me though..