December 1, 2008
2:45 AM
ACS(P)
]]]EDIT: Started writing this about a week and a half ago, before Sydney. I was planning to do a few entries, but I guess there isn't much motivation for this anymore. No, it isn't about recalling horrible pasts, just that it gets... boring(?) narrating your own life story after having replayed it that many times in your own head. I'm not writing further, but its a real waste deleting it, so there.[[[[
12 years of education. Nothing could change you more.
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The first two years of primary school was probably the worst of it all. Ever wondered what it was like to be the target of organized bullying? I bet I could tell you.
Classes ranged from A to E. I got into D. So-so. The letter seemed nice and all. Had a form teacher who looked like an auntie in retirement. Had a class who was about a quarter or half retarded. That group was made up of almost all malay guys. (No, I'm not being racist. Its all true..) One of them ended up looking for me just to ask a basic arithmetic question, four or five years later. Other than that, the class was pretty much average, with kids ranging from sugar-rush to stone cold. I guess I was around the middle, leaning a bit to the stone cold side.
The teachers? I can't even remember, other than old woman. Maybe there was this other guy though, can't remember what he taught. He looked a bit too buff to be teaching in a primary school. He probably didn't teach english though, since he 'confiscated' one of my Enid Blyton books (the 'in' book that era) which I think was just sitting on my desk at that time. He returned it one or two days later saying it was a good book, which made me lol a bit.
I don't think there was a 'specific time' when the bullying started. It probably just happened as it did. As far as I knew, the people concerned were a few individuals in my own class, as well as a whole other class. Why they picked me? I have no idea. Maybe I had a pick-on-me aura. Maybe I looked as if I was good picking-on fodder? Maybe a few kids influenced a gang mentality on the rest of them, though its still a question of why me in the first place.